Sunday, September 19, 2010
Saturday, September 18, 2010
In one year...
If you knew that in one year you would die suddenly, would you change anything about the way you are now living?
It would be impossible for me to do everything I want to do before I die, so I would probably do the things that really mattered or that I really want to experience.
I would would make arrangements with someone to take over payment of my student loan or try and work out some kind of deal with the company. There would be so many things I'd want to do, so if it were possible, I would try and raise money for myself or ask my relatives for money so I can accomplish some of those things…
I would also quit my job, but because some of the people there are my friends, I’d find some time to get together and have a few drinks, etc.
I would spend as much time as I could with my family, and forget about all the little feuds that exist between certain members of my family. I’d like us all- cousins, aunt, uncles, grandparents, etc. to take one of those trips like we used to when I was a kid. I'm already living on my own, but I would like to live in my very own house, so I would try and make that happen. I'd have parties all the time and invite friends to come over anytime.
I would hunt down a certain someone and we’d have endless hours of sex…;)
I’d also spend a lot of time with my friends. We could go on a Caribbean cruise or travel somewhere, as long as we have loads of fun shopping, swimming, eating, drinking, etc. Yes, I would get drunk. To experience it.
I’d like to experience having a child, but I wouldn’t want to bring one into the world if I knew I would be dead in a year, the child doesn’t deserve that…sooo…I would look into surrogate motherhood. I would feel more comfortable carrying a baby and then hand it over to its real parents if I knew I wasn’t going to be around to see the kid being raised by someone else.
I would play the music as loud as I wanted, and write as much as I can, about many different things. In the summer, I would sit on the lush green grass when I pen and some paper and just jot down my thoughts and feelings. I’d want to meet some famous people, you know me and my TV. I’d love to experience nature, so I’d take a few trips around the world to different places- ie- rainforest, Hawaii, scuba diving somewhere, see a real tornado, etc. I’d want to own a Great Dane if I could, and as instead of sleeping (because I can do that when I’m dead), I would spend the nights staring at the sky.
I wouldn’t care about what I ate or about how short the days are. I’d pay attention to the finer details in life instead of looking at the more obvious things. I wouldn’t worry, I wouldn’t get angry, I wouldn’t care about making a fool out of myself.
Instead of focusing on the fact that I’m dying, I’d rather spend that time just living.
"First I was dying to finish high school and start college. And then I was dying to finish college and start working.Then I was dying to marry and have children.And then I was dying for my children to grow old enough so I could go back to work. But then I was dying to retire.And now, I am dying . . . And suddenly I realized I forgot to live."
It would be impossible for me to do everything I want to do before I die, so I would probably do the things that really mattered or that I really want to experience.
I would would make arrangements with someone to take over payment of my student loan or try and work out some kind of deal with the company. There would be so many things I'd want to do, so if it were possible, I would try and raise money for myself or ask my relatives for money so I can accomplish some of those things…
I would also quit my job, but because some of the people there are my friends, I’d find some time to get together and have a few drinks, etc.
I would spend as much time as I could with my family, and forget about all the little feuds that exist between certain members of my family. I’d like us all- cousins, aunt, uncles, grandparents, etc. to take one of those trips like we used to when I was a kid. I'm already living on my own, but I would like to live in my very own house, so I would try and make that happen. I'd have parties all the time and invite friends to come over anytime.
I would hunt down a certain someone and we’d have endless hours of sex…;)
I’d also spend a lot of time with my friends. We could go on a Caribbean cruise or travel somewhere, as long as we have loads of fun shopping, swimming, eating, drinking, etc. Yes, I would get drunk. To experience it.
I’d like to experience having a child, but I wouldn’t want to bring one into the world if I knew I would be dead in a year, the child doesn’t deserve that…sooo…I would look into surrogate motherhood. I would feel more comfortable carrying a baby and then hand it over to its real parents if I knew I wasn’t going to be around to see the kid being raised by someone else.
I would play the music as loud as I wanted, and write as much as I can, about many different things. In the summer, I would sit on the lush green grass when I pen and some paper and just jot down my thoughts and feelings. I’d want to meet some famous people, you know me and my TV. I’d love to experience nature, so I’d take a few trips around the world to different places- ie- rainforest, Hawaii, scuba diving somewhere, see a real tornado, etc. I’d want to own a Great Dane if I could, and as instead of sleeping (because I can do that when I’m dead), I would spend the nights staring at the sky.
I wouldn’t care about what I ate or about how short the days are. I’d pay attention to the finer details in life instead of looking at the more obvious things. I wouldn’t worry, I wouldn’t get angry, I wouldn’t care about making a fool out of myself.
Instead of focusing on the fact that I’m dying, I’d rather spend that time just living.
"First I was dying to finish high school and start college. And then I was dying to finish college and start working.Then I was dying to marry and have children.And then I was dying for my children to grow old enough so I could go back to work. But then I was dying to retire.And now, I am dying . . . And suddenly I realized I forgot to live."
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
Bittersweet Autumn
The dawn arrives, gray and somber.
A chill air, alive with a lingering scent of smoke
wraps itself around the dying leaves
Ablaze with gold and crimsons;
Sounds of silence creep between bare trees,
Which the birds have long abandoned.
Summer fades; the bittersweet autumn has begun.
Some random things
A few things that about me that are weird or random that you might not know:
1. I hate talking on the phone in front of other people, doesn’t matter who I’m talking to, I prefer to talk to them by myself with no one around or other listening ears.
2. If someone is calling me and I don’t know the number, I don’t answer it, leave a message and I might get back to you.
3. Some days I can’t stand clutter, everything has to be in its place and neat and tidy, but other days, I don’t really care. My room could be a mess and I wouldn’t care, I guess as long as the clutter is organized. Haha, an oxymoron: organized clutter.
4. I used to have to fall asleep on my back, but now I can only fall asleep on my right side, I could even sleep that way the whole night. A little ouchie in the morning, but it goes away.
5. Even though she died almost a year ago, I still think about my dog every day and how I wish she was alive. I can’t think about her for a long time, because I get really upset.
6. I enjoy watching shows like Ice Road Truckers and Man Vs Wild, and lately I’ve become a huge fan of Cash Cab on Discovery Channel.
I believe that is all for now :)
1. I hate talking on the phone in front of other people, doesn’t matter who I’m talking to, I prefer to talk to them by myself with no one around or other listening ears.
2. If someone is calling me and I don’t know the number, I don’t answer it, leave a message and I might get back to you.
3. Some days I can’t stand clutter, everything has to be in its place and neat and tidy, but other days, I don’t really care. My room could be a mess and I wouldn’t care, I guess as long as the clutter is organized. Haha, an oxymoron: organized clutter.
4. I used to have to fall asleep on my back, but now I can only fall asleep on my right side, I could even sleep that way the whole night. A little ouchie in the morning, but it goes away.
5. Even though she died almost a year ago, I still think about my dog every day and how I wish she was alive. I can’t think about her for a long time, because I get really upset.
6. I enjoy watching shows like Ice Road Truckers and Man Vs Wild, and lately I’ve become a huge fan of Cash Cab on Discovery Channel.
I believe that is all for now :)
Friday, July 30, 2010
Seven sins
7 SINS SURVEY
--Wrath--
[x]Sworn at your parents?
[x]Hated them?
[x]Been furious with a friend?
[x]Angry at someone for no reason?
[x]Hated a friend?
[ ]Held a grudge?
[ ]Sought revenge?
[x]Yelled at a friend?
[ ]Hit a wall in rage?
--Greed--
[x]Had desire for excess money?
[x]Wanted more of something when you had enough?
[x]Kept to yourself instead of sharing?
[x]Wanted more than you have?
--Pride--
[x]Bragged to someone?
[ ]Had an ego trip?
[x]Felt better than those around you?
[x]Felt "too good" to do something?
[ ]Felt like you didn't need offered help?
[ ]Talked about yourself too much?
[x]Basked in your accomplishments?
[ ]Felt like nobody was as good as you?
--Envy--
[x]Wanted something a friend owned?
[ ]Felt jealous of a friends talents?
[x]Felt envious of someones accomplishments?
[x]Or of their grades?
[x]Or their salary and or amount of cash?
[x]What about someone else's clothes?
[x]Appearance or looks?
--Lust--
[x]Ever liked a friends bf/gf?
[x]Had dirty thoughts of someone you werent dating?
[x]Been in a suggestive situation with a friend?
If so, whom? [not telling]
[x]Had dirty thoughts of your bf/gf?
[x]Been to 1st base?
[x]2nd?
[x]3rd?
[x]4th?
--Sloth--
[x]Put off a huge project till the last day?
[x]Planned your day but not acted upon it?
[x]Thought of something but didn't feel like doing it?
[]Ignored homework in a class your failing?
[x]Told yourself "I'll do it later"?
[x]Slept in past noon?
[x]Sat on the sofa for hours on a beautiful day?
[x]Not wanted to do anything physical?
--Gluttony--
[x]Pigged out?
[x]Till your stomach hurt?
[ ]Blown your paycheck in one day?
[x]Wasted your money?
[x]Spent a lot on yourself but not others?
[x]Hogged something?
[x]Kept doing something even though you told yourself to stop?
--Wrath--
[x]Sworn at your parents?
[x]Hated them?
[x]Been furious with a friend?
[x]Angry at someone for no reason?
[x]Hated a friend?
[ ]Held a grudge?
[ ]Sought revenge?
[x]Yelled at a friend?
[ ]Hit a wall in rage?
--Greed--
[x]Had desire for excess money?
[x]Wanted more of something when you had enough?
[x]Kept to yourself instead of sharing?
[x]Wanted more than you have?
--Pride--
[x]Bragged to someone?
[ ]Had an ego trip?
[x]Felt better than those around you?
[x]Felt "too good" to do something?
[ ]Felt like you didn't need offered help?
[ ]Talked about yourself too much?
[x]Basked in your accomplishments?
[ ]Felt like nobody was as good as you?
--Envy--
[x]Wanted something a friend owned?
[ ]Felt jealous of a friends talents?
[x]Felt envious of someones accomplishments?
[x]Or of their grades?
[x]Or their salary and or amount of cash?
[x]What about someone else's clothes?
[x]Appearance or looks?
--Lust--
[x]Ever liked a friends bf/gf?
[x]Had dirty thoughts of someone you werent dating?
[x]Been in a suggestive situation with a friend?
If so, whom? [not telling]
[x]Had dirty thoughts of your bf/gf?
[x]Been to 1st base?
[x]2nd?
[x]3rd?
[x]4th?
--Sloth--
[x]Put off a huge project till the last day?
[x]Planned your day but not acted upon it?
[x]Thought of something but didn't feel like doing it?
[]Ignored homework in a class your failing?
[x]Told yourself "I'll do it later"?
[x]Slept in past noon?
[x]Sat on the sofa for hours on a beautiful day?
[x]Not wanted to do anything physical?
--Gluttony--
[x]Pigged out?
[x]Till your stomach hurt?
[ ]Blown your paycheck in one day?
[x]Wasted your money?
[x]Spent a lot on yourself but not others?
[x]Hogged something?
[x]Kept doing something even though you told yourself to stop?
Monday, June 14, 2010
The summer night is like a perfection of thought
The summer solstice will occur one week from today, the longest day of the year. Although summer officially begins on that day, many people mark the start of the season when the Canada Day long weekend begins, even though it often does not fall on a Monday. The days are passing so quickly now, they seem to be the last few years or so. Are we wishing too many days to pass? Have our lives become so monotonous that each day we pray for the next to arrive? Surely not. Time is precious, it heals all wounds, but it takes people and precious things away too. We have to learn to deal with it, with everything that happens in our lives. The summer will fade into autumn, lets make the most of it....
Rest is not idleness, and to lie sometimes on the grass under trees on a summer's day, listening to the murmur of the water, or watching the clouds float across the sky, is by no means a waste of time.
John Lubbock
Light dancing amid shallow pools of cerulean,
swirling mercilessly, never ending.
Soothing winds brush against blooming gardens
of magenta and cobalt.
Petals rise, like butterflies attracted to the gold rays of the sun
Rest is not idleness, and to lie sometimes on the grass under trees on a summer's day, listening to the murmur of the water, or watching the clouds float across the sky, is by no means a waste of time.
John Lubbock
Light dancing amid shallow pools of cerulean,
swirling mercilessly, never ending.
Soothing winds brush against blooming gardens
of magenta and cobalt.
Petals rise, like butterflies attracted to the gold rays of the sun
…and are carried away.
With them flow the sweet smells of summer.
With them flow the sweet smells of summer.
Monday, May 3, 2010
Just some words that make me smile... :)
It's not the years in your life that count, it's the life in your years.
I'm not the prettiest and I'm not the skinniest, but I'm honest and I'm real. And it will never get any better than that. =)
If I behaved, I'd die of boredom.
Women are angels, and when someone breaks our wings, we simply continue to fly .... on a broomstick. We are flexible like that...
Normal is ........ getting dressed in clothes that you buy for work and driving through traffic in a car that you are still paying for - in order to get to the job you need to pay for the clothes and the car, and the house you leave vacant all day so you can afford to live in it. - Ellen DeGeneres
Dreaming is good, believing is better, making it happen is best.
Life is not about the number of breaths you take in a moment, it's about the num...ber of moments that take your breath away.
All that we see or seem is but a dream within a dream. Edgar Allen Poe
Laughter is timeless, imagination has no age, dreams are forever. - Walt Disney
Happiness most often comes unplanned and inexpectedly-- like a shooting star on a silent night.
Shoot for the moon, even if you miss, you will land among the stars.
If one dream should fall and break into a thousand pieces, never be afraid to pick up one of those pieces and begin again.
Dream what you want to dream, go where you want to go, be what you want to be, because you only live this life once, so live it and be happy.
Don't be afraid of death; be afraid of an unlived life. You don't have to live forever, you just have to live.
It's your life, what you gonna do?
The world is watching you.
Everyday the choices you make,
Say what you are and who your heart beats for.
It's an open door.
Believe in love
Believe in magic,
Hell, believe in Santa Claus.
Believe in others,
Believe in yourself.
If you don't, then who will?
So close no matter how far. Couldn't be much more from the heart. Forever trusting who we are. And nothing else matters. - Metallica, Nothing Else Matters
I'm not the prettiest and I'm not the skinniest, but I'm honest and I'm real. And it will never get any better than that. =)
If I behaved, I'd die of boredom.
Women are angels, and when someone breaks our wings, we simply continue to fly .... on a broomstick. We are flexible like that...
Normal is ........ getting dressed in clothes that you buy for work and driving through traffic in a car that you are still paying for - in order to get to the job you need to pay for the clothes and the car, and the house you leave vacant all day so you can afford to live in it. - Ellen DeGeneres
Dreaming is good, believing is better, making it happen is best.
Life is not about the number of breaths you take in a moment, it's about the num...ber of moments that take your breath away.
All that we see or seem is but a dream within a dream. Edgar Allen Poe
Laughter is timeless, imagination has no age, dreams are forever. - Walt Disney
Happiness most often comes unplanned and inexpectedly-- like a shooting star on a silent night.
Shoot for the moon, even if you miss, you will land among the stars.
If one dream should fall and break into a thousand pieces, never be afraid to pick up one of those pieces and begin again.
Dream what you want to dream, go where you want to go, be what you want to be, because you only live this life once, so live it and be happy.
Don't be afraid of death; be afraid of an unlived life. You don't have to live forever, you just have to live.
It's your life, what you gonna do?
The world is watching you.
Everyday the choices you make,
Say what you are and who your heart beats for.
It's an open door.
Believe in love
Believe in magic,
Hell, believe in Santa Claus.
Believe in others,
Believe in yourself.
If you don't, then who will?
So close no matter how far. Couldn't be much more from the heart. Forever trusting who we are. And nothing else matters. - Metallica, Nothing Else Matters
Sunday, February 28, 2010
O' Canada, our home and native land
True patriot love, in all thy sons command
With glowing hearts, we see thee rise
The true north strong and free
From far and wide, O' Canada
We stand on guard for thee
We stand on guard for thee
God keep our land, glorious and free
O' Canada, we stand on guard for thee
O' Canada, we stand on guard for thee.
Never been more proud to be CaNaDiAn! A fantastic final day of 16 days of competition, way to go Sidney Crosby, scoring the winning goal in the gold medal hockey game!! We are truly proud to wear our nations colours:
RED, WHITE, and GOLD!!!
Sunday, February 14, 2010
▌♥ ▌ Go Canada Go!! ▌♥ ▌
Congratulations to Alex Bilodeau of Montreal, winner of the first gold medal for Canada in the Vancouver 2010 Olympic Winter Games, and the first gold medal for our country on home soil. I'm sure we will all be inspired by this win and believe that our athlete's have the ability to bring more medals home!!
"I believe in the power that comes
From a world brought together as one
I believe together we'll find
I believe in the power of you and I.
I believe the time is right now
Stand tall and make the world proud
I believe together we'll fly.
From a world brought together as one
I believe together we'll find
I believe in the power of you and I.
I believe the time is right now
Stand tall and make the world proud
I believe together we'll fly.
I believe in the power of you and I."
Thursday, January 7, 2010
Sometimes....
Sometimes...
sometimes i just need: a vacation.
somtimes i want: money and lots of it.
somtimes i like to: stay in my pajamas all day and do nothing.
sometimes all it takes: is a hug and a compliment to make me feel better.
somtimes i picture: myself having a baby.. not sure if I could do it.
sometimes i wish: I could find that special guy. I have those special friends but maybe I want something more....
sometimes i find: people to be annoying, not all, just some.
sometimes i take: wayy too much time in the bathroom.
sometimes i look: like I don't give a shit. and I don't give a shit.
sometimes i hate: when people fly off the handle for no reason.. just fuckin lighten up!
sometimes it's nice: to see someone you haven't seen in awhile.
sometimes it hurts: when I get accused of something I didn't do.
sometimes it makes me happy: when I act like a complete retard.
sometimes it's sad: to see commercials on TV about animals being abused :(
sometimes i listen: in on other people's conversations, not to be nosy, but because I'm bored.
sometimes i sleep: late into the afternoon.
sometimes i like to watch: the Food Network.
sometimes i feel: like no one is listening.
sometimes i rant: about my job.
sometimes i never: give myself credit.
sometimes i really: hate the way I look.
When I'm...
sad, i want: my friends :)
happy, i need: my friends.
mad, i wish: someone would make it all go away.
overjoyed, i find: someone to share it with me.
indifferent, i like to: be alone.
content, i never: let anything bother me.
frustrated, all it takes: is a stupid comment to set me off.
If..
you saw your best friend on one side of the road, but you also saw one of your close family members on the other side, and they were both in serious danger, who would you go to help first?
I would probably try to divide my time, see who needed help the most, and then go from there.
you had the choice of going back in time to or go forward in time to see the future, which would you choose?
If I chose back in time, I would want to see how the world began. And if I chose the future, I would want to see how the world will end. I think I would rather see the future.. watch the movie The Time Machine, you'll know what I mean.
jesus was standing right infront of you, what would you say to him?
Probably thank you, I guess. Without him, the world might be a different place today.
sometimes i just need: a vacation.
somtimes i want: money and lots of it.
somtimes i like to: stay in my pajamas all day and do nothing.
sometimes all it takes: is a hug and a compliment to make me feel better.
somtimes i picture: myself having a baby.. not sure if I could do it.
sometimes i wish: I could find that special guy. I have those special friends but maybe I want something more....
sometimes i find: people to be annoying, not all, just some.
sometimes i take: wayy too much time in the bathroom.
sometimes i look: like I don't give a shit. and I don't give a shit.
sometimes i hate: when people fly off the handle for no reason.. just fuckin lighten up!
sometimes it's nice: to see someone you haven't seen in awhile.
sometimes it hurts: when I get accused of something I didn't do.
sometimes it makes me happy: when I act like a complete retard.
sometimes it's sad: to see commercials on TV about animals being abused :(
sometimes i listen: in on other people's conversations, not to be nosy, but because I'm bored.
sometimes i sleep: late into the afternoon.
sometimes i like to watch: the Food Network.
sometimes i feel: like no one is listening.
sometimes i rant: about my job.
sometimes i never: give myself credit.
sometimes i really: hate the way I look.
When I'm...
sad, i want: my friends :)
happy, i need: my friends.
mad, i wish: someone would make it all go away.
overjoyed, i find: someone to share it with me.
indifferent, i like to: be alone.
content, i never: let anything bother me.
frustrated, all it takes: is a stupid comment to set me off.
If..
you saw your best friend on one side of the road, but you also saw one of your close family members on the other side, and they were both in serious danger, who would you go to help first?
I would probably try to divide my time, see who needed help the most, and then go from there.
you had the choice of going back in time to or go forward in time to see the future, which would you choose?
If I chose back in time, I would want to see how the world began. And if I chose the future, I would want to see how the world will end. I think I would rather see the future.. watch the movie The Time Machine, you'll know what I mean.
jesus was standing right infront of you, what would you say to him?
Probably thank you, I guess. Without him, the world might be a different place today.
Monday, January 4, 2010
The end of a decade and a new one begins
It's hard to believe that a decade has gone by and it is 2010 already. I remember New Years Eve 1999 when the world was panicking about the year 2000 and all the problems it would cause. Nothing happened though, nothing to worry about.
In the year 2000 I finished grade 10 and moved on to grade 11 at Simonds High School. Grade ten was probably the best year in high school, my group of friends met new friends, but we stopped talking to a few, things changed, and we all moved on. Grade eleven was pretty cool, decent classes, lots of good times with friends.
In 2001, I said so long to grade eleven and entered the final year of high school. September 11th happened in the states which was the topic of conversation on TV for days, weeks, and months.
In 2002, and maybe late in 2001, I rekindled a friendship with someone that is still going strong today.. and we have known each other for more than 12 years. Sarah was and is one person I can always count on.. same goes for my other best friend Niki. In 2002, I graduated with honours from Simonds High in June, a lot of memories happened at that school and I wouldn't trade them for the world. In July, I started my first job at Sobeys Loch Lomond.. it has changed my life i can honestly say. I have many friends because of it. That August I got my drivers license. In September, Sarah and I began university life at UNBSJ.
2002-2006, Sarah and tried hard to have the same classes, and the majority of the time we did. We met interesting professors, some we won't ever forget, and some we would like to. We had some good times at the university. I had my first fender bender in one of the parking lots. In 2005, I bought my lovebird Ollie, whom I love and cherish. He is a smart little creature that is spoiled rotten. In June 2006 we both graduated from UNBSJ with Bachelor of Arts Degrees in Sociology. That summer I bought my car, which i still have, and it's my baby.
2007- Still working at Sobeys, procrastinating about getting another job... good times with friends. That June, I moved out of my parents house and in with Sarah in a basement apartment on Karen st, where I still reside.
2008- Still at Sobeys yada yada. Met Mai Ling that January. That October Sarah moves out of the apartment and Erica, a fellow co-worker moves in, with 2 kittens. Oh the joy. Royden, Sarah's cat, stayed with me, and we will forever share a bond. That November, the powers that be announced Sobeys Loch Lomond would close in Jan 2009. I've never cried so hard in my life. Needless to say, the next 2 months were spent not really caring about what we did. Also in November, my parents sold the house that I lived in for 23 years and moved up to our camp, where they eventually planned to retire. In early December, after attending the staff dinner at my new Sobeys store in Rothesay, I went into the ditch and had to get my radiator replaced in my car. That was fun. The first Christmas that wasn't in Willow Grove was weird, but it wasn't bad, we didn't have a tree, but that's ok.
2009- Jan 3rd, Sobeys Loch Lomond closed its doors forever. I met some fantastic people there and most of us still keep in touch. We partied at Doolys that night til the wee hours of the morning.
Jan 5th, new store, new faces.. don't regret it at all. Met some great people this year, ones that I hope will be my friends for a long time to come.
My parents starting building their new house this past summer, it would be done by Christmas.
My great nan died that fall, she was 98 years old, a wise woman who loved to garden and enjoyed baking, knitting, and writing cards.
Our beloved dog, Puckie, also passed away this fall, she was almost 13 years old. The greatest dog anyone could have ever asked for. I will never forget her. Forever in my heart, soul, and my memories. May she rest in peace. She never got to live in the new house, which we just had our first Christmas in. We will make new memories there, never forgetting the times we had at our old house and times we spent with Puckie.
Cheers to a new year, a new decade, and another chance for us to get it right. Have a rocking new year.
Cheers to a new year, a new decade, and another chance for us to get it right. Have a rocking new year.
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